Lost Everything

ANIMALS

«Irochka, dear, Andryusha has told me everything about you,» her mother-in-law announced in such a sweet voice that at first Ira didn’t even realize what she was getting at. «Honestly, why do you two need a child right now? You’re still young, your whole life is ahead of you. And Andrei… He needs to make something of himself as a man, get on his feet, achieve something in life. Do you understand, darling? I think… No, I’m more than sure that now is definitely not the best time to have a baby.»
«I don’t understand, Svetlana Fyodorovna…» Ira said in surprise, sitting down on the edge of the bed. «What are you suggesting I do? Turn back time by two months? I don’t know how to do that.»
«Oh, don’t be childish,» her mother-in-law sighed. «There’s no need to turn anything back. I’m offering you a tried and true solution—go to the hospital and have an abortion.»
Irina was so stunned by those words, she literally forgot to breathe.
«What?! Do you even realize what you’re saying? What abortion? This is Andrei’s and my child.»
«Believe me, it’s better for everyone this way. You and Andrey will have plenty of time for children later. You’re both still young!»
Irina sat on the cold bench near the train station, unable to stop her tears.
People passed by without paying her the slightest attention, while she stared into one spot and just didn’t know what to do next. She had no money to get home. And felt ashamed.
When Ira left her small coastal town for the big city, she promised her parents that she would make it. She told them she would definitely be successful, find happiness in her personal life, and be truly happy.
Her mother hugged her for a long time before she left, while her father, as always, pretended to be completely calm.
Though Ira knew deep down that he worried just as much as her mom did.
«Come on now, Tamara,» he would say, hugging his wife’s shoulders. «Our daughter is smart, she’ll be just fine.»
Irina truly believed she’d be fine too.
She got into a good college, then met a handsome and confident young man, and after a few years she married him.
His name was Andrei, and back then she really thought there was no better man in the world.
But Irina’s parents took a dislike to her fiancé instantly. Still, they couldn’t go against their daughter’s choice. They accepted it. It was only the day before the wedding that her mother gently asked:
«Are you sure he’s the right one? Maybe you shouldn’t rush into marriage?»
«I’m sure, Mom,» Irina replied with a smile. «Andrei is wonderful, and he’d never betray me.»
To Irina, Andrei really was that fairytale prince every girl dreams of. He knew how to romance her, brought her flowers, took her to fancy restaurants, and said things that made her head spin.
Plus, his parents were well-off.
Andrei’s father, Gennady Viktorovich, was a university professor, while his mother, Svetlana Fyodorovna, owned two stores, did charity work, and loved telling friends and acquaintances about all the good she’d done for other people’s children.
At first, her mother-in-law was very wary of Irina. But eventually, she seemed to accept her son’s choice, and Ira thought the hardest part was behind her. How wrong she was!
Everything changed when Irina found out she was pregnant. She was sure that Andrey and his parents would be happy to hear the news. But things didn’t go at all as she imagined.
Ira remembers that evening down to the smallest detail.
At that time, she and Andrey were still in their final year at university, but they already lived in the apartment Andrey’s parents had given them as a wedding gift.
Irina sat across from her husband, smiling, while he sipped his tea, eyes fixed on his phone screen.
Every now and then, Andrey would glance up with a puzzled look at his wife.
Finally, he couldn’t hold back and asked:
“Ira, why are you smiling all evening? Did you win the lottery or something?”
Irina really was smiling because she still couldn’t quite believe she would soon become a mother. She was waiting for the moment when Andrey would finally pay attention to her.
“Guess what? We’re going to have a baby!” Ira said after a brief pause.
At first, Andrey didn’t even understand what she meant. Then his expression changed.
“I don’t get it… What baby?”
Ira thought he was joking.
“Ours. We’re having a child. I’m pregnant. Aren’t you happy?”
He pushed his cup aside and was silent for a long time. Then he finally said:
“Ira, what do you mean, a baby? Don’t you get that we’re just starting our lives? I have to focus on my career and our future. Kids are the last thing we need right now.”
Irina never expected that reaction from her husband. She tried to explain that they could handle it, that their parents would help if needed, and that having a child wouldn’t get in the way of his work or plans.
But it was like Andrey wasn’t even listening. In the end, he got up from the table and went to the other room to watch TV.
The next day, Irina got a call from her mother-in-law.
“Irochka, dear, Andryusha told me everything,” she whispered in such a gentle voice that Ira didn’t even realize at first what she was getting at. “Why do you need a baby right now? You’re still young, your whole life is ahead of you. And Andrey… he needs to make something of himself, become successful. You understand, my dear? I think—no, I’m more than sure—now is just not the right time for you to have a child.”
“I don’t understand, Svetlana Fyodorovna…” Ira said in surprise, sitting on the edge of the bed. “What are you suggesting? That I turn back the clock two months? I don’t know how to do that.”
“Don’t be silly,” her mother-in-law sighed. “There’s no need to turn back time. I’m just offering a proven solution: go to the hospital and have an abortion.”
Irina was so shocked by these words that she could barely breathe.
“What?! Do you realize what you’re saying? An abortion? This is Andrey’s and my child.”
“Trust me, it will be better for everyone. You and Andrey will have plenty of time to have kids later. You’re both so young.”
After that came endless conversations about how Ira was destroying her husband’s future and how she needed to think about the family, not just her instincts. And eventually… she gave in.
Ira was young, confused, and terrified of losing the person she loved.
She thought that if she gave in now, everything would eventually work out. That Andrey would understand how much she loved him.
Ira agreed to have an abortion. Of course, she didn’t tell her parents anything about it. In hindsight, that was a mistake…
Maybe her parents could have talked her out of making such a terrible decision.
But what’s done is done. To this day, it’s painful for Irina to remember what happened next.
After the abortion, she developed an infection and needed medical treatment. Sometime later, doctors delivered heartbreaking news: her chances of having a child were now very slim.
Irina didn’t immediately understand what this truly meant. She kept thinking there must be some procedure, some medicine, another specialist—someone who could fix this.
She went from clinic to clinic, doing tests, collecting opinions, and never losing hope until the very end.
At first, Andrey went with her and tried to offer support in whatever way he could. But then he started getting irritated, and eventually, he stopped caring about the results altogether. Years went by.
And today, he came home, sat across from his wife, and told her he wanted a divorce.
«I don’t understand…» Ira looked at him in shock, just as she was setting the table. «Why? What’s happened, Andrey?»
«I’m going to have a child,» Andrey said, not meeting her eyes. «With another woman. And I’m going to marry her.»
«What?!»
«Ira, let’s not make a scene, okay? I need an heir, my mom wants a grandchild, and you… you can’t have children.»
Irina couldn’t hold it together. First, she cried, then she started shouting that it was him and his mother who made her get the abortion, then she went back to crying again.
Andrey sat there stone-faced, saying nothing. He never liked repeating himself.
If he said he would live with another woman, then that’s exactly what he was going to do—he wouldn’t change his mind. No amount of bitter tears would make him reconsider.
When the tears dried up, Irina stared at her husband for a long time, trying to understand how this could be happening.
After all, he was the one who insisted she get rid of their baby. He and his mom, Svetlana Fyodorovna, kept telling her they were too young for kids, that they should first get established and achieve something in life. And now suddenly, it turned out he actually wanted an heir—and a grandson for his mother, too.
That night, for the first time, Irina saw a complete stranger sitting in front of her. With his confession—or maybe it was more like an announcement—Andrey completely crushed any love she had left for him.
She packed her most essential things and left that night. The apartment had been bought by his parents, so there was never really a place for her there anyway.
Andrey didn’t even try to stop her. When Irina ran from the building and out onto the street, she suddenly realized she had nowhere to go. Her parents lived far away, and she had lost touch with all her friends.
During all those years of marriage, Ira tried so hard to fit her beloved husband’s idea of the perfect wife. She was so afraid to disappoint him that she slowly stopped reaching out to people she cared about. Now what? Where could she go, what should she do? Ira didn’t know.
With the last of her money, she called a taxi and went to the train station. For now, she didn’t go inside, wanting to avoid drawing attention to herself. Her hair was a mess, her face red and tear-streaked.
No, in this state, it was better to stay away from people. Besides, she didn’t have any money to buy a ticket.
That’s why she sat on a bench next to the station with a small travel bag, crying.
She wasn’t sobbing uncontrollably like she was a few hours earlier. But the tears kept coming. Irina felt so hurt and betrayed.
She’d basically just been thrown out onto the street, the way people throw out a dog they’re tired of.
That comparison to a dog didn’t come out of nowhere. While she was walking toward the bench, she’d seen a little dirty puppy running along the sidewalk, looking up at people, hoping they’d give him something tasty.
But people kept walking past. Irina walked by too. But not because she didn’t care about the poor thing.
It was because she didn’t have anything with her.
She didn’t even have money to buy him some food. Honestly, right now, she wasn’t much different from him. Just as abandoned and unwanted.
Maybe that’s why, whenever she noticed that puppy out of the corner of her eye, Irina started crying even harder.
She felt sorry for him. And herself too.
The puppy wasn’t running on the sidewalk anymore. He was sitting nearby, watching Irina intently.
Then he walked over to her. He stopped next to the bench, looked up at her with dark eyes, and after a moment, gently nudged her leg with his nose.
«What do you want?» Irina sobbed. «I don’t have anything. No food, no money. I can’t give you anything. Sorry. You’d better try your luck somewhere else.»
But the puppy didn’t leave.
He curled up at her feet and laid his head on his paws, as if he’d decided this was exactly where he belonged.
«Silly one,» Irina smiled through her tears. «I really don’t have anything to give you.»
The puppy raised his head and looked at her as if she’d said something that made no sense at all.
And in that moment, she remembered how one of her now ex-friends used to say that dogs choose a person not for what they have.
But simply because they’re a person. “They love us with unconditional love…” Olya would say, cuddling the little Pomeranian she often brought with her to university.
Irina wiped her tears, glanced at the puppy lying by her feet, and picked him up.
She didn’t even understand why she did it. Maybe when someone is near you (even a dirty stray puppy), it doesn’t feel so scary. Or so lonely.
They sat there like that for about an hour. Irina stroked the dog, and from time to time he would lift his head and look at her, as if checking whether she was about to cry again.
Then some unfamiliar elderly woman stopped near them, wheeling a shopping bag.
«Oh, what a beautiful puppy,» she said with a smile. «Is he yours?»
«No,» Irina shook her head while wiping away tears. «He came up to me himself. I just picked him up so he could warm up a bit.»
«Why are you sitting here alone at this hour? And why are you crying? Did something happen to you?»
«Everything’s fine,» Irina answered quickly, sniffling. She really didn’t feel like talking to anyone at that moment.
But this woman turned out to be quite persistent.
«I can tell something’s happened. Let me guess, you had a fight with your husband, right?»
«How did you…»
«How did I know you’re married?» the woman chuckled. «That’s not hard to figure out. You’re wearing a wedding ring. Tell me, have you been sitting here for long?»
«I don’t know,» Irina shrugged.
«You must be freezing! Let me treat you to some tea. It’ll warm you up, at least a little.»
«You don’t have to…»
But the woman was already digging in her bag, pulling out a small thermos. She unscrewed the lid, poured some tea into it, and handed it to Irina.
«Drink up! The tea’s delicious, made with herbs. You must be hungry too, right? Here, take this,» the woman offered her a baked pastry. «I made it myself. It’s cherry. And for your little puppy, I’ve got some sausage. I’m sure he won’t mind a snack either.»
Irina sipped the hot tea, ate the cherry pie, and watched as the elderly woman fed the puppy.
«He’s a cute one. When he grows up, he’ll be the most loyal friend you could have.»
«Yeah,» Irina agreed with her.
The woman kept asking questions, and Irina replied or just nodded her head. Bit by bit, she got Irina talking.
At some point, Irina even felt that there was no one closer to her in the world than this retired woman.
Maybe that’s why she finally started to open up.
At first, she shared that she had come here from a small town, studied at university, got married. And then…
…the words just started pouring out of her.
Irina talked about Andrey, about her mother-in-law, about the child she lost, about the doctors, and about how she ended up outside her own home tonight.
The woman listened intently, never interrupting. Only once did she ask,
«Do your parents know what happened?»
Irina shook her head.
«No. I can’t tell them about this. They warned me that Andrey wasn’t the man for me, but I argued with them, insisted they didn’t understand anything. How do I go back now? What do I say?»
«You’ll tell them the truth,» the woman replied. «You’re their daughter, not just some stranger off the street.»
«But I didn’t listen! I got myself into this mess. And for what? Just to end up with nothing in the end?»
«Are you sure you ended up with nothing?»
Irina looked at her in surprise.
«What do I have? I… I’ve lost everything…»
The woman was silent, as if carefully choosing her words.
«I wouldn’t say that. You’re alive, you’re healthy, you have parents who love you. You have an education. And clearly, you haven’t forgotten how to love, since even in your situation, you found the strength to feel sorry for a stray dog. That’s a lot, my dear. Really a lot.»
Irina lowered her eyes.
«But I’ll never have children.»
The woman sighed heavily, then gently covered Irina’s hand with her own.
«I don’t know what the future holds for you… No one does. I won’t promise that everything will turn out just the way you hope. But the most important thing right now is that you’ve finally broken free from someone you never needed—and who never really needed you. Life has given you a second chance. A chance to start fresh. And it looks like he’s getting one too,» she added with a smile, glancing at the puppy nestled in Irina’s arms, his tail wagging from time to time.
“Well… two lonely souls meeting each other,” Irina sighed.
“So, tell me, what are you planning to do?”
“I don’t know,” Irina shrugged. “I don’t have any money. I could pawn my ring, but the pawn shop doesn’t open until morning. So looks like I’ll be staying here until then.”
“No, that won’t do. Here’s some money,” the woman took her wallet out of her bag and handed Irina two five-thousand-ruble bills. “Buy a ticket and go home. Go to your parents.”
“I can’t take your money…” Irina said nervously.
“Don’t worry. Pay me back when you can. The important thing is, don’t lose hope. Everything will work out for you. Oh!” The woman glanced at her watch and started packing up her thermos and the bag of pastries. “I have to go, or I’ll miss my train.”
Irina wanted to get up and see her off, but the woman firmly stopped her.
“Stay put. Right now, you need to think about yourself. And about the dog. You’re not going to leave her, are you?”
Irina looked into the puppy’s eyes, which were staring at her with curiosity.
“I won’t leave her,” she replied, surprised at how confident she sounded.
“That’s wonderful. Good luck to you!”
It was only after the woman disappeared into the crowd that Irina realized she knew nothing about her—not her phone number or even her name.
«How will I ever return the money to her?»
Then she remembered what the elderly woman had told her before leaving: “Today, I’ll help you. Someday you’ll help someone else. It doesn’t have to be me. Just don’t walk past someone who’s hurting.” That thought calmed Irina.
“Alright, little one, shall we go buy our ticket?” Irina said, looking at the puppy. “Our train leaves in an hour and a half.”
The next day, Irina was standing at the doorway of her apartment with the puppy in her arms.
Her mother hugged her tightly and didn’t let go for a long while, while her father silently took her bag and set it in the hallway.
No one asked why Irina had come home so suddenly, who was to blame, or what would happen next.
They were simply there for her.

“And who’s this with you?” her mother asked in surprise when she finally let her daughter go.
“This is Caesar. We met at the train station. I couldn’t just leave him there by himself.”
“You did the right thing,” her father laughed. “Your mother and I were just talking about getting a dog to make the house less lonely, and then you show up. Perfect timing, honestly.”
The first few months weren’t easy.
Irina had to get used to her hometown again, a place she hadn’t been for a long time, and learn how to find joy in life all over again.
Thankfully, she had people—and a dog—by her side, and they helped her through this difficult time.
Some nights, Irina would wake up and lie awake, remembering everything that had happened. In those moments, Caesar would climb onto her bed and sigh quietly, as if he understood that his owner was feeling down and needed comfort.
After some time, Irina found a job. It wasn’t in her field, but that didn’t matter anymore. As her father liked to say, the main thing is to start. And she did.
Six months later, Irina met her future husband, who worked as a mechanic at a garage near where she often walked Caesar after work.
One day, her loyal dog spotted the open gate and decided to make friends with the locals.
Dmitry treated the dog to a meat patty, while Ira, blushing and embarrassed, kept apologizing.
«Oh, please, that’s not necessary,» Dima smiled. «We’re always happy to have guests here.»
Dmitry turned out to be nothing like Andrey. He didn’t try to impress her with expensive gifts, didn’t brag about his connections or talk about what a great man he was going to become. He simply worked, helped his parents, cared for his little sister, and knew how to listen. He also had a cat named Stepan. Yes, a cat—Ira had seen pictures of him on Dima’s phone.
Whenever Dima came to visit her, Caesar would immediately lift his head and start wagging his tail, clearly showing that this was someone to trust.
Irina’s parents really liked Dmitry. But, just as before, they didn’t interfere in their daughter’s personal life. She had to make the decision herself.
But Irina didn’t know what decision to make. She’d always been afraid of serious relationships.
But her biggest fear was that sooner or later, Dima would find out everything about her and… be disappointed.
So, when he first started talking about the future, she decided not to hide the truth from him.
«Dima, I need to tell you something,» Ira began.
He turned towards her.
«Yes, Ira. I’m listening.»
It wasn’t easy, but she told him. She told him about Andrey, about the abortion, about the doctors and that she might never be able to have a child.
It was terrifying to say out loud. She kept expecting Dima’s expression to change, for him to pull away or start searching for words to avoid hurting her. But instead, he just gently took her hand.
«Ira, I love you,» he said. «Not just any woman who might someday have my child, but you. I have no idea how our life will turn out, but what I do know is that I want to be with you.»
«Woof-woof!» Caesar barked.
«And with you, too,» Dmitry laughed. «By the way, Stepan says hello.»
Ira burst into tears—from relief.
After that, they got married.
And a couple of years later, a little girl joined their family. Irina and Dima adopted Anya, who was only six months old at the time.
Ira remembered well the first time she held her: tiny, warm, with an amazingly serious little face and small fingers that instantly gripped her index finger tightly.
Ira looked at this little girl and couldn’t believe she now had a daughter.
Dima stood beside her, gently stroking her shoulder and smiling, while Caesar and Stepan, who were allowed to peek into the room for a bit, sat nearby just as happy as their owners. And why wouldn’t they be happy? The family just got bigger!
Since then, the dog and cat became Anya’s most loyal friends. When she crawled on the floor, Caesar patiently lay down, allowing her to grab at his fur, while Stepan rubbed against her and purred loudly.
Anya would look from one to the other and laugh.
In those moments, Irina couldn’t hold back her tears. What a happiness it is to see your own child laugh!
When little Anechka turned six, Ira and Dmitry decided to celebrate her birthday at their dacha, which they had bought just last year. They arrived there early in the morning, with both sets of parents promising to join them by lunchtime.
Caesar and Stepan were also part of the festivities, and even in their older age, they still believe it’s their duty to follow Anya everywhere she goes.
Irina stepped out of the country house and, seeing her daughter playing with Caesar, smiled. Although, if you looked closely, there was a hint of worry in her eyes.
«I just hope these two don’t get into any mischief!» she thought, watching as her daughter and the dog raced at full speed straight toward the garden bench.
At the very last moment, Anya swerved abruptly, and Caesar, unable to stop in time, surged right after her and almost knocked over the cat Stepan, who just happened to be «in the wrong place at the wrong time.»
The cat arched his back and hissed in irritation, while Anya, stopping in her tracks, immediately burst out laughing.
«Caesar, what are you doing! You almost ran over our Stepka! You have to be careful. He’s our only one.»
The dog, apparently without any guilt, ran up to the cat and licked him a few times (probably as an apology), then dashed back after his little owner.
Irina watched all of this unfold and thought about how strange life can be.
There was a time when she believed happiness meant a prestigious college, a handsome husband, an expensive apartment, and the ability to impress friends with her achievements.
She was so afraid to lose all of that, she didn’t notice for a long time that she was losing herself.
Now she realizes: the most valuable things in life can’t be bought, inherited, or earned by winning other people’s approval.
Love never requires you to be perfect.
True loved ones don’t turn away when you’re struggling. Even in the hardest times, there’s always someone who will lend a helping hand. Sometimes it’s a relative, sometimes a stranger at a train station, and sometimes it’s a little dirty puppy that just curls up by your feet and absolutely refuses to leave, because it knows you’re having a tough time.
Standing on the porch of the dacha, Irina watched her daughter, and looked over to see Dima tending to the grill.
The plates were already set out on the table in the gazebo (the parents would arrive any minute), and ahead was a whole day they’d spend together.
And there was one more piece of news only Ira and her husband knew so far.
She was expecting a baby.
The doctors couldn’t promise that everything would turn out fine, and Ira and Dima were trying not to plan too far ahead.
But every time she thought about the tiny life that might soon join their big family, tears welled up in her eyes.
After all, her happiness began that night at the train station, when she sat in despair and had no idea where to go. If not for the elderly woman who gave her tea and money for the journey, she might not have dared to return home for a long time.
And if it hadn’t been for the puppy that found her, who knows if she would’ve found the strength to even smile back then.
Life truly is an amazing thing.
No matter what happens, she just keeps moving forward, and sometimes the scariest event turns out to be the beginning of something beautiful. Life is truly full of miracles—you just have to believe in them.